Mourning the One Who Got Away

Ok, so just as an FYI, I am in a committed and wonderful relationship. That being said, there is always that one person that you wonder about- What if things had been different? What if he hadn't been a dick? I had that guy. This was the guy that I pined over for months. I did stupid things to try and get him back. I sacrificed my ideals in desperation. It was sad really. It did kind of work out. We ended up being friends and if I saw him tomorrow there would be hugs and such, but when he got away, it was a mystery to me why.
This was the horrible, rotten fruits of my pining:

I walk around my room, trying to escape from the shadows of you
Everywhere I turn
Everywhere I look
Something reminds me of you
For one brief moment in my life I knew happiness
I had you
Was it my mistakes?
Or was it you?
Where did we go wrong?
How can I get over you?
Moving on is hard
Every man I meet is nothing compared to you
You aren't the best to all
But it feels like you are the only one for me
My heart is aching for you
I long to hear your voice call my name
I feel your arms around me, even when you aren't here
I know you don't want me in your life
But how can I make your memory leave?

March 13, 1995



Wow, this makes me want to kick my own ass.